I've been reading this thread for a couple weeks now and I thought it would do you good to offer some encouragement. It is difficult to stay motivated when results are slow going, I have tried and failed so many times to loose weight it is rediculous. I started my spring slim down this week in hopes that I'll be able to loose 45lbs and keep it off before my scheduled backpack elk hunt in Colorado this October. I'd love to go on one off the LRH group hunts someday but I just can't afford it any time soon. I hope that you have started to get back into the habit of exercise and good eating. Your story sounds a lot like mine. I get motivated to loose weight and get back in shape and will set unrealistic goals, schedules and expectations. I'll keep up with those expectations for a few days or weeks then I'll have a setback of some kind, sickness, injury, work trip, family holiday etc. All of a sudden my motivation is gone and I'm right back where I started only this time I feel defeated instead of motivated. This drives me to not care and get worse. I am trying to rewire my brain this go around, instead of starting in an unrealistic unsustainable way I'm trying to change small things until they become normal to me. For example, one of my big my weaknesses is fast food, I'll eat that junk every day because it's easy to pick up on the way home from work, or easy to grab during lunch. I'm working on changing the way I think about eating so that I don't dread the waiting or effort involved in home cooked food. A little planning goes a long way in the realm of healthy eating. Sleep is another issue for me. I've always been a night owl, I'll stay up late and end up hitting the snooze button until the very last second so all I have time to do in the morning is shower, throw on clothes and run out the door. This sabotages my whole day. There is then no time for exercise or a good breakfast I'll usually end up just drinking coffee and eating junk food. I'm trying to train my self to go to bed early so I can get up with time for exercise and a healthy start to the day. My advice to you would be to look deeper and try to identify the root cause of your weight issue and the main pitfalls that keep you from succeeding. Begin to address the root cause and main road blocks instead of forcing yourself into an unrealistic program and you will hopefully see lasting sustained changes for once. Good luck I'll be cheering for you.